The only reason why I'm writing here it's because I more or less can't write it somewhere else so I end up here. It's meant for some personal kind of dome but there's still this hope in me that whoever I mentioned will just read this post.

I've no idea why but yes I'm jealous of you. And you are my best friend. I mean yeah you know we've been friends for 4 years and we talk and share stuff and all that but there's still this sense of unsureness in me. I'm jealous of you, not the aspects that make you.

I mean, look, you have all that wide circle of friends (I'm not jealous of your friends) that sometimes even talking to you is like the wrongest thing that can ever get. And your family member are irritating and all that but sometimes it bothers me ALOT when you talk bad about them because CMON you have such a good freaking life even if your they are irritating with their nagging you still get to live your life and go out as you want. Yeah my parents are awesome and all that but sometimes I'm jealous that I wished I had your life and you take my life because honestly speaking you might think you know alot about me (might) but in truth you don't know as much. You don't know what I get angry at, only because I am a person who doesn't like to speak about what bothers me and you, you sometimes don't even bother to find out. Yeah sometimes I don't tell but you don't ever realise I do wait for you. Not that it really matters much, but I think you should start caring about more important things than trivial things which you like to tell it over the phone.
Ok I'm done with you.

And then you. I don't exactly care about you now but I think it's disgusting the way you want to be all that popular and such. Cos I tell you one thing, you'll one day question yourself who your real friends are when you look back. And stop wearing disrespect fully to church. And flirting with guys. Church clearly isn't for that reason.

And you. Ok I've honestly have no idea what's up with you and kpop but I truthfully was happy when we talked on msn yesterday. I guess you really still mean an amount to me.