Saturday, September 26, 2009 (11:05 PM)
Weird stuff keeps on hapeening nowadays. What with those problems in school.
Actuall I just wan 2 tok bout crazywoman n wat happen tis morning.
So tis morning, when I walked up the stairs from the locker room, n 2 e pool deck, crazy woman was like 'I heard u r transferring to Ace. I said yes. N she asked when, so I said probably after JIC. N she said 'you go there must train hard'.
den I trained wif Li 4awhile. n I kept thinkin' bout her last line. damn. I felt half hate-her-even-more n half guilty. but wateva. so when she came back wif the soccer guys, I went back to swim wif her. den while the guys doing warm-up, she go talk to me. n it was ridiculous n stupid n plain weird. she's like 'wat's ur reason 4 transferring to Ace?' didn't say anything. infact, the whole time she was tokin' 2 me, I just practically kept quiet. n my reason for transferring is cos I hate her. n seh surprised me by prompting me, asking 'is it because u dun lyk me, or dun lyk my trng programme?' n I thought back bout my attitude towards her during e past year I was under her, n yeah, I think I really showed it 2 her I hate her distinctly n very harsh, as wat Min oso said. den she started going on tis crap tok saying if the reason is cos I dun lyk her, she'll just let it go. n if the reason is cos I hate her trng programme, she went on tis fricki' roundabout tok, wat everywhere I go will hav hard trng blah blah blah. n all e other rubbish.
C'mon man. hu she is 2 me. Just a frickin' bloody crazy woman, whom I'm force to call 'JiaoLian' n in my eyes, she's jus an old bitch hu does not reflect bout wat she's making us suffer. she tink wat, her trng's good and all tat? I tink the day when I embrac her trng one so whole-heartedly is the dayI'll drown in the sea. lyk fk. wat's her problem. e way she tok 2 me, I could very nearly kicked her ass tat moment. n it was weird. I just really hate her 2 e fking core. I tink I never hated a grown adult so much. f her. I noe tat I'll feel really sorry for Li, but I tink in future competitions when I see the bytch, I'll jus u noe, give e face, dun say hi, show tat I still hate her one hell of anything. she's jus a fking brainless coach, in which I wasted half a year under her. I find it embarrassing, and am evry-single-time ashamed of myself, whenevea I call her jiao lian.
And on tues, we were doing stretch cords pull. n cos I was lazy 2 not-let-go of it, I jus simly let go, n it hit super hard on her head:D n she was super pissed off, shouted at me 'ni gan ma?!' which is like wat's my problem, n I just laugh at her, n she was pissed off wif me oh-so-m,uch she didn't bother 2 look at me or anything when we were swimming. which was actually godd, cos I was slacking wif Racheltay. even if she hate me, I tink the amount I fking hate her, the word 'indescribable' is an underestimated word.
N I dunno whether the problem in school is settled. but after e forum, I really cannot bring myself 2 treat her as my good fren or anything. Not even fren. Just classmate, although we hang out as a clique. It's like the natural feeling Amanda have towards ... I came 2 realise tat she will never learn 2 accept her mistakes n will probably be always tokin' lyk she 4eva own it. I noe tat 3 of us were lyk really ridiculous 2 u guys so I'm sorry. But if she does not wan 2 say sorry, it's not point forcing her. tat's hu she is. While ur r irritated wif the latter, I'm annoyed wif the first. She jus toks as if she's e mafia boss. Maybe, yes, it's her natural way of tokin', I won't trigger my irritations but it will just be in my mind lyk, 'oh yeah, she's lyk tis, jus a classmate hu hangs out wif the same ppl I hang out wif' I dun tink it can be change.
N I oso come 2 realise tat we expected a lot one out of another. ah we oredi came 2 tat so let's jus forget everything.
